Acrylic on canvas
80 x 80 x 1,6 cm
Unique
October 2025
Captured …this work was created during a phase that was strongly marked by both tension and calm within me. The pink, which dominates everything around it, acts like a background hum of my thoughts – gentle, almost comforting, and at the same time demanding. It radiates warmth, yet it is intense enough to make my inner restlessness visible. The subtle color nuances blend into each other, creating a sense of depth, as if emotions and thoughts are unfolding in layers. The shapes that move within it – circles, rectangles, triangles – do not appear as fixed structures, but as attempts to hold myself together, to bring order to myself, without truly having control. They mirror my own loops, my inner repetitions, my constant striving for stability in a state that is, by nature, still far too often unstable. There is no center, no clear point of rest. Everything presses in on me at once, everything demands attention. Yet right in this chaos, I feel how I try to hold on… because I desperately want and need to… because I can… I know I have the strength to organize myself… every line, every circle, every edge feels like an act of inner cohesion, like a quiet attempt to create balance where nothing holds on its own. The image reflects for me the tension between delicacy and strength, between grace and burden, between letting go and holding on. It shows that stability is not a state, but a conscious, active process…an achievement that requires attention, patience, and energy. At the same time, it conveys a quiet beauty – the beauty of the moment in which something is held firmly despite all resistance. I recognize not only the outer form in it, but also my own inner self…the struggle for balance, the holding of fragility, the bearing of tension, and the ability to remain anchored in oneself despite everything. The work thus becomes a mirror of my own psychological landscape – a field of control and letting go, order and movement, support and freedom. And that is precisely the core of what moves me most: the conscious holding on, the quiet strength that makes it possible to bear everything in the moment. It is this mix of effort, delicacy, inner strength – and the gentle yet intense pink that holds everything together like an emotional field… that is what makes the work and perfectly captures the title ‘Firmly Held’.
